I’ve taken it all in what happened yesterday and coming to terms with it. The first thing I have to do is see how the Veclade works. I should know in about 6 weeks (to some extent) which will give the first cycle results.
I’m going to be optimistic going on the Velcade, not because I’m a positive person, but because I have no other logical option. I’m not going to be one of these people that just curl up and give up.
Hopefully the antibiotics will clear up the infection I have at the moment and I will feel a lot better and it will give a chance for my blood to recover faster.
I didn’t mention yesterday how painful the bone marrow biopsy was. The first time I had it was back on 5 Nove 2009 when I first found out I had cancer, when they did that one it was really painful and they couldn’t extract any marrow but had to roll the bone on slide to get and extract. I was hoping that after all the treatment I had that the marrow would be easier to extract. Guess what it wasn’t as painful that the first one, it was worse, at least from what I remember. I had a nurse and assistant with me and the assistant offered to hold my hand during the process. I refused the offer and told her about last time that I nearly ripped the pillows apart with the pain, afterwards she was glad she didn’t.
I seem to have an intolerance to the local anaesthetic she gave me as much as she could and when she tested hitting the bone with anaesthetic needle it was a dull pain, rather than sharp, but as soon as she put the other one in with bone corer (similar to an apple corer but not as bit) it was very painful and I could feel every bit. In the end, the only way she could get it done was if I tried breathing over the pain (women will know what I mean, well those who have given birth anyway – oh and fathers). Well that’s what I had to do as I couldn’t have any more anaesthetic. It was very painful and I screamed in pain a few times, but finally got it done. There was a man opposite to me that had the same thing done for the first time. He started his before me and I gave it some thought as to mention it would be painful, but thought I would leave him to find out for himself. Afterwards I asked him how his was, ‘I didn’t feel a thing’ he said. I guess it is just me being one of those lucky guys who nothing works for!